I feel that blogs like these are not supposed to be so depressing... so emo... so stupid... whatever word you might prefer. The dumb thing is that I feel like I can't really say much to anyone anymore for one reason or another.
I wish I could go back and change so many things... I wish I were better. I need a change in almost every part of my life and myself. I'm tired of failing...
I just always wanted to be normal.
It feels every part of me is... wow, I really can't even explain this.
All I know is that if I don't change, if I don't get out of this place, then I will lose everything... but maybe that's the way I'm supposed to be and how my life is supposed to go. I'm so very confused...
I can't begin to explain how I feel, so I have even failed with words. They should really make pills for this... or, rather, better pills.
